Shades Of Words

2012 – Moving on


As long as I can remember I have been restless. I have had this urge to move on, to discover and to explore relentlessly. When I was a child my father’s job kept us on the go. Every three years a different city, a new home, new neighborhood, new school and new friends. Just as I was putting out roots, it was time to move again.

The physical process of moving is exhausting and to do it every three years requires determination and stamina. As a child, I was sheltered from the actual hassle of it all. For me, it was an adventure ride – not knowing what was around the corner. Setting up a new house with mom meant unpacking dozens of crates and boxes.  It was like a month of Christmas for my sister and me. I don’t remember the pain of losing friends, for were there not letters and phone calls to help keep the oaths of eternal friendship?  Also, I had learnt very early in life, that both friends and reasons for friendships are transient. New relationships always question the relevance of old ones and very few survive.

Over the years, my mother grew weary of the constant movement, of turning every company allocated flat into a home. She always made plans of how things will be like in “my home” – an elusive dream place where she could invest time and effort to make it comfortable and not abandon it to strangers just when she was getting settled. As I grew older and went way to college, I inherited this longing for stability; I started talking about “my place”.  One of the first things on my agenda after being independent was to buy my own place, which I did, but which I never lived in.

It’s been exactly 10 years since I graduated from college, and I have learned that those were just notions in my head, that old habits are hard to break and in my heart I will always be itching for change.

In 2012, I had a choice for the first time in my life to create that stability. Kapil and I had been in St. Louis for almost 3 years, and we could have lived there for another 30. It is a perfect little town to raise a family, to spend quite weekends in the backyard, to chat with your friends under the star and live for the rest of your life. I could not wait to get away from it all.

So I orchestrated a change. At work I told everyone “anywhere but here”. Several months later, Kapil and I find ourselves in the City of Angels living a hectic, expensive and far from the peaceful life that we were used to.  We truly did shake the hornet’s nest on this one.

Am I happy? Sure, happier than before.  Is this where I want to make a life? I am not entirely sure. I don’t know if such a place exists for me.

Once I changed where I lived, I focused on what I did and that it was time to let go. So I resigned from my job and was unemployed for the first time in 7 years.

Kapil often asks me “What are you looking for?”. I don’t  have an answer but I am working very hard to find out.

Let’s see where 2013 takes us.


Author: Vipula

Before talking about who we are, we’d like to tell you a bit about how and why Shades of Words came into being. It all started with the idea of “A place where we could share with likeminded people about things we enjoy. From books to music to movies to travel; Shades of Words was to be a place about the best of our experiences” We thought about why should anyone read us? The answer was that whatever we review would be a mix of our experience of the thing along with interesting and useful information about it. So in case you are reading us regularly or even checking us out once in a while then we have succeeded in our efforts someway somewhere. Who are we? Known as Kapil Sood and Vipula Gupta, we thought of Shades of Words on one fine Sunday afternoon. Tired of writing interesting RFP’s and project documentation; we decided to give this a shot. Yes! We work in Indian IT industry. Cupid struck us while were innocently slogging together on the highly intricate job of formatting and beautifying documents! And since then, we have been working together to establish Shades of Words as a place that we can claim as ours. (Because buying a house is still years away!) What else? Kapil also writes some blogs which you can read here and here.

8 thoughts on “2012 – Moving on

  1. Ah I see you’ve been musing…well-written. Its strong on writing style and emotions ofcourse 🙂 Well for all you know you might find that perfect city/town where you want to settle but if not today then eventually. I feel that sometimes it make take a while to find that answer to all questions. So here’s to hoping you find all your answers in 2013 😉

  2. Just read that by now and am positively surprised by How much that touches what i speculated about in my last letter. I Love your way of writing.

  3. As I always say, you express your thoughts in a simple and interesting way. I can easily understand, what do you want to say here, as i was very much a part of this constant change in our lives. Stability can, sometimes mean stagnation and monotony, but `always on the move’, starts giving one nightmares after some years.
    For a sense of stability and security, try to settle down in one place and to answer your `paer mein chakkar’ go on holidays periodically.
    Keep writing.

    • Thanks ma..yes I know what you mean. Travelling is fun. but it should be leisurely so you can experience the place

  4. all this time I thought your blog had gone quiet …
    I used to get notices when you updated your blog, but those have not arrived in mailbox for some time…
    that said what a treat to find my way here to check on you today Vipula 🙂
    I see I have lots of catching up to do …
    when if not now I say to your searching …
    you are young and the whole world is waiting for you…
    May all of your wishes and dreams come true

    • Hi Patty, so nice to see so many comments from you! My blog has relatively gone quiet..though I don’t understand why the updates thing is not working.
      Thank you for your wishes..yes I think I will forever keep discovering but some stability is also nice

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